Sometimes you can't make it on your own.

"Don't leave me here alone"

I'd be lying if i say i'm ok, i'd be lying if i said that im even half good. I've got worse, the last few days, they've been tough, really tough.

It's UCAS time, time for university applications, time for panicking, time for hard times. It might not sound very stressful, but at this moment i don't know whats going to happen over the next 10 and a bit months. 6 months ago on the 11th March i was on for 3 B's, not alot compared to some of my friends, but i'd have been very happy with that. On 12th March that changed, and slowly but surely my grades dropped and dropped, now i've been told that if i were to wake up tommorrow 100% healthy and then worked myself hard then i could get a C. Which pretty much puts me out of the running for every university i wanted to go to.

Not only that but i'm getting worse, not better. I've spent the last 7 hours in bed...



"My god, takes the broken, and makes them whole."

Now its a game of patience, i'd set my sights for Oxford Brookes to do Business, but for that i need 3 B's, thats 300 points. My other main 2 choices are Herfordshire and University of West of England (UWE). Hertfordshire want 260 points which is CCB, which is possible, although depending on when i get better, not necessarily probable. UWE want 200-260, which is more likely with DDC to CCB. The other 2 will need 2 B's although i doubt i'll put them down as final choices unless i have too. I'm sending a Doctors letter to all of them too, so hopefully that should help, and hey if you saw a doctors letter saying "he has been ill for 6 months and can't read of write properly" you'd hope that they took some pity on me. And just like John McCain with his "i was a POW speeches" i need all the sympathy i can get, especially if it helps me get into a better university!

Hope everyone is well, and not too stressed out.

Ta Ta For Now

I don't know anymore, lets just take it day-by-day and pray that something happens